So, I'm debating on whether or not I should put a really long STiM blog up. I mean, I guess some people would care to know what's going on... I think I'd rather just write a really long love letter to my team. They've been AMAZING. Seriously, folks, these are some of the coolest, most loving, funniest, most charming, most fabulous people in the world. I'd bet my bank account on it, if I were a betting man... Or woman. These men and women have been the most tangible showing of Christ's love to me, ever.
God has really shown up during STiM weekends. It's like He spends the weekends highlighting what He's been teaching me. There's a safety I feel entering Tehuacana city limits. See, it's been a kinda rough semester with leadership, so STiM has been my refuge. People who love me, who seem to have the same heart for the world, and want to learn how to love people as Christ's ambassadors. Learning how to die to myself in order to make relationships with people. Praying for God to break me of my sinful selfish ways... And all the while I'm making these amazing relationships... With outstanding brothers and sisters.
Yesterday was kinda rough. I had to deal with something I didn't ever expect... I'll tell you about it if you ask me...But instead of getting to run away from it, Michael caught me and made me tell him what was going on. Then stayed there and held my hand while I cried and he, AmyD, and I prayed... Brandon and Alicia stayed outside and waited, as Michael was going home with them, and hugged me and made sure I knew I was much loved by as we were all leaving.
And, really, that's just one way to show how awe-inspiring this team is. And it wasn't just that they were there during that time... Like, how could Michael know that just doing that could help me take big steps in healing my relationships with men? How could Subin know that because he reminds me of my high school best friend, he feels safe and secure, which sometimes is such good medicine? How could Alicia know that she listens, and it means the world to me that she also cares what goes on in my life? How could Dave know that hearing the excitement in his voice when he sees me makes me day? How could Judy know she makes me laugh so hard that every time I think of her I smile? As a matter of fact thinking of anyone on my STiM team makes me smile... Ear to ear... Face-aching smile. And I love it.
You know how this team can be so amazing? Because the Lord brought us together. His Abba love for us caused us to become a family. An amazing beautiful family with so many differences. I love it. God, in His perfectness, chooses to use us, in our brokeness, to minister to one another. We are such a testimony to how Great, Gracious, Almighty, and Loving our God is. It's all about Him... And it's crazy, because no matter how UNfaithful we are, He still chooses to show us love. Through His Word, His children, His world, His Spirit, His Sacrifice. He has amazing grace. I can't wait to be broken more. To die to myself and lay it all on the line for Him. For what He's done. Not because He needs me, but because He proves time and time again that He wants to use me... And why, I'll never know, but I'll be forever grateful that He does.
Know that He wants you to... Longs for you... And Loves you. :)
So, there's this thing called class that I don't seem to go to anymore. It's as though I've decided it's optional or something. I used to go to class all the time when I was younger (you know, freshman, sophmore) and for some reason I've deicded that class is not important anymore and I can go only when I feel like it. I hate missing these classes, too, because they are the ones where attendance really counts. And they're FUN, too!! Grrr... I don't know why I slam my alarm and then roll over and sleep until 10:30!!! I lose. I lose I lose I lose!
With that out of the way, I am on my way to my "important class" of the day (not saying that Dance and Volleyball aren't important, but ADPR actually pertains to what could quite possibly be my future career) and I'm looking forward to the fact that all we'll have to do today is take notes. Ususally we have a big project to work on, seeing as this is my graphic design class, but today he's going to explain what he wants in our annual report... And that's it.
I was in a really weird mood last night. Sorta lonely, but not really... Sorta bored, but not really... Sorta wanting to be in a new place and time altogether... But not really. Lately I've been feeling like I just want to take a break from being me. I want to have some actual time off, as opposed to whatever my "time off" is now... Which is usually time where I'm having to do something I couldn't do earlier because I had fifteen other things to do. Now, don't get me wrong... I love all the things I do. Really. I wouldn't trade it for the world. I'd just love a little break. That's it. Whining done. End scene.
I'm supposed to go home for Easter weekend, which, sadly, I'm not really looking forward to. I love seeing my parents, but Amarillo makes me want to gag most of the time. Not that Lubbock is all that better... But... Well, I feel like I'm better here. I don't know.
I really really want to go out (or stay in) and do something super fun on Friday night... I'm hoping that there will be some people still in town who want to hang out... But who knows.
So, this has been an incredibly boring and strange post. It was theraputic for me, however... And I hope I don't lose all my "fanbase" from this blog. :)
I'm just wondering why I have a hard time caring about the things I really need to worry about (i.e. SCHOOL) but it's quite easy for me to freak out about things that don't matter. I'm just feeling not happy. I have two tests this week and I don't care about them. Tomorrow I have to deal with the fact that I missed all of my Tuesday/Thursday classes last week because I was horribly ill. And I really was, contrary to popular belief... I even have 2 doctor's notes. I'm whiny and cranky and I don't know why. Argh. I really really don't like being in this mood.
God's bringing me to a really scary place right now. I think He wants me to deal with something that I've never really wanted to deal with and it came out at exec meeting... And I just don't want to have to deal with it. But, the only thing I know is that God has my best interests at heart, so He's doing this for a reason. I just don't want it. And I'm having strange new feelings for someone that I don't want to deal with, either. I'd like to rewind to freshman year where there was no responsibility... And no life. LOL :lol:
It's funny how the amount of blogging I do can usually be directly correlated to how much I'm putting into my walk with Jesus. Seeing as how I haven't blogged in awhile, you can probably guess that I haven't been putting the effort into my walk that I should be... That being said, it still amazes me how God comes and meets me where I am. I shouldn't be surprised, right? He's the same Abba He always was. Do I think He's going to go changing His character because I'm a big dork?! No way. Let me 'splain.
So, it's been a rough semester for me. I'm willing to say that I have a lot on my plate. Exec, STiM (Student Training in Missions), work, oh yeah, SCHOOL, and trying to have a life, has proven to be hard on me. So, I got super sick... I was so mad. I was sick during STiM weekend, sick from school, and sick on my BIRTHDAY. I had a meltdown on Monday during Exec meeting... Just the culminations of tough emotional times... Then God goes and teaches me... It was like all of a sudden today He said, "Robin, I'm going to make you rest, even if that means forcing you to stay home because I know what's good for you and I want to spend time with you." Now, I know I'm humanizing God, and I really don't mean to, but there you go.
It's just that He loves me that much. He'll keep pushing the button until I realize that it's HIM I'm missing... It's not stress or "lonliness" or worry.... But I miss my Abba... My "Daddy God." And oh, the love fest when I figure that out and go back. The peace, joy, and LOVE of my God. *sigh* He's the best.
He's so good to hit me in the right spots. Matt (http://falcontch.tblog.com) had some friends of his from Pais (http://www.paisproject.com) come and talk at Large Group tonight. Man, they were awesome. I love hearing about missions, anyway, and they always renew my desire to be sent. Most of ya'll know I'm "short-terming it" this summer in Mexico City, Praise God... But that's not what this blog is about.
I got to talk to the director, Tony, and one of the guys in the program, Mike(http://mdingrimsby.tblog.com). (*Little background on Robin, in my "other life" I was obsessed with all things British.*) Tony was fantastic. God really used him to say some things I had been needing to hear. Like, it's ok to be happy. That what Jesus does. Well, actually He gives unending joy, but thankfully, He also makes me happy. Anyway, we got to talk about the PAIS program and it really sounded attractive. I thought I'd never want to go back to the UK after living in London... But, I mean, I was so attracted to it for so long... PAIS has a program where people work with high school aged kids in their schools... It just sounded so great. Plus, listening to Mike talk was just a BLAST. No matter what, I will always think British accents are FABULOUS. And he talked about being "Scottish" which made my day, because I "heart" Scotland... Just all around really cool people.
What that should boil down to is that God brightened my outlook on graduation. "I'm not going to leave you with NO OPTIONS in your life, Robin," I felt Him saying, "I'm always going to show you how to serve me. Just listen and trust. I AM big enough."
Tony also told me I was funny, which is soooo cool to hear, because sometimes I think I'm just dumb. :?
My birthday was Weds March 31st. It, too, was fabulous. My friends took me out to Chili's... There was like 20 people there. For MY birthday. I was the special birthday girl! So exciting! Then Micheal, Jason, Stefanie, Jessica, and I had a nightcap. It's good to be old sometimes. I got reminded of how special and loving my community really is through my birthday. They made sure to let me know how much I am loved, what else could a girl ask for on her birthday? Oh, flowers. And I got those, too. :)
I love how Jesus never leaves me alone. Not even for a little bit. He never stops teaching me. He never stops molding me in the woman He always planned for me to be. He continues to show me in big ways, and sometimes even better, in small ways, that He loves me and WANTS me to be with Him.
LAYER ONE Name: Robin Siobhan Birth date: March 31, 1982 Birthplace: London, England Current Location: Lubbock, Tx Eyes: Dark Hazel, if that's a color... Hair: depends on my mood. :wink: Height: 5'6'' Righty or Lefty: Righty
LAYER TWO Your heritage: Welsh and a sundry of other European ethnicities The shoes you wore today: black and white striped flip flops with red flowers Your weakness: boys who love Jesus Your fears: being alone, and lots of moving things... IT's hard to explain Your perfect pizza: Chicago style (deep dish) with lots of cheese and mushrooms and olives Goal you'd like to achieve (short term): write a good Maid of Honor toast for Mere's wedding Goal you'd like to achieve (long term): to try and be more like Jesus everyday and to follow where God leads me... No matter where that might be...
LAYER THREE Your most overused phrase on AIM: LOL Your thoughts when first waking up: Oh surely it's not (whatever time the alarm goes off) Your best (purely physical) feature: ummm... I don't know. Someone who knows what I look like can fill that one in for me... Your bedtime: 11pm Your most missed memory: "the theatre... the theatre... what happened to the theatre?"
LAYER FOUR Pepsi or Coke: pepsi McDonald's or Burger King: McDonalds Single or group dates: Right... Never been. Adidas or Nike: I don't care Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: I have no clue Chocolate or vanilla: Chocoalte Cappuccino or coffee: Chai?:)
LAYER FIVE Smoke: Awww... No way! Cuss: not anymore, thankfully! Sing: 'Kyeah! Take a shower every day: I try to Have a crush(es):One giant crush... *sigh* Do you think you've been in love: Nope Want to go to college: So, if I say no, and I'm in college, is that ridiculous? Hee hee hee! Just kidding! I love being in college! Want to get married: Of course!! Believe in yourself: Not really, but I believe I can do anything through Christ... It's in the Bible :) Get motion sickness: Only on boats Think you're attractive: Only on a good day... Think you're a health freak: Ummm.. NO. Get along with your parent(s): Yes, yes I do... Like thunderstorms: Yeee haw, bring it on! Play an instrument: Does my voice count? Does a kazoo count? Does owning a guitar count?
LAYER 6: In the past month, have you... Gone to the mall: Ugh, yes. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Nope Eaten sushi: Sadly no. Been on stage:Nope Gone skating: nope Made homemade cookies: Not in the last month, no. :( Gone skinny dipping: Oh, heavens no! Dyed your hair: Yup Stolen anything: nope
LAYER SEVEN: Ever... Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope Been called a tease: Yes, sadly. Gotten beaten up: I've never been in a fist fight.
LAYER EIGHT Age you hope to be married: Whenever God thinks I'm ready. Numbers and Names of Children: Ummm... 5?:) Describe your dream wedding:One where the guy God made for me is standing at the front...Yeah... That's about it Where you want to go to college: Ummm.. Tech? :) I wanted to got to William and MAry for a long time What do you want to be when you grow up: a servant... What country would you most like to visit: I love SCOTLAND...
LAYER NINE: In a guy/girl... Preferred eye color: Does it matter? Well, I have a thing for blue eyes. DAngit. Best hair color: Yeah, doesn't matter Short or long hair: I actually like long hair... But, again, it doesn't matter. Height: I like him to be taller than me... Best weight: I don't care? Best articles of clothing: Ummm... Let's see... How about jacket? I don't know!! Best first date location: Tehuacana... Heh heh heh... Best first kiss location: At the altar? After the preacher man says, "I now pronounce you husband and wife." :wink:
I found this on some random blog... Thought it was kind fun. :)
I really feel like I'm dissapointing the dedicaded readers by the last PATHETIC post... So, I'm going to give some special messages to the people I know read the rantings of Robin... Ya'll ready??
Tali: Hi hunny! I love you bunches! It's been so neat getting to know you this year. I'm so ok with you and Schroeder!;) I'm praying for you to get through this week, and I love being JELLY BEAN! Thanks for sharing The Apprentice with me. Nick and Amy will have adorable children!
Laura: You have been the most awesomest roommate ever! I'm so glad that we actually became friends... Thanks for not laughing at my lack of curry skills!
Heather: Hey Sistah! IT's so good to hear from you once in a while. I love how God can bring the most random people together... Thanks for your uplifting messages! Keep shining!
JnyBea: I love you so very very much! I'm still so glad you're back, even though you've been back for several months now. You are so special and fabulous!
I think that's all the people who actually read this...
Here's the Jesus update for today. He's so awesome... Awesome doesn't even begin to describe him, as Jammin' Jason said today. I know this sounds uber-generic, but Jesus has just been soooooo faithful. I've had TIME to get things done this week. It's amazing how if you let Him, Jesus will take control of your calendar... And suddenly, there's time for everything!! :) He's better than any DayTimer I've ever seen!
BTW, my birthday is in 21 days. You should plan ahead. :wink:
Right, I went to class today, always a good step, and had a midtem in Spanish and group discussion in Electronic Media and Society, which isn't the easiest thing, since its a class of at least 150 in an auditorium style room (Mass Comm 101 for those who want to know) but interesting, none the less. I was a bit productive, since I've re-learned the value of a good "TO DO" list.
I got on the bus after my bit of productivity and sat down (kinda sideways in the seat, legs crossed, since the bus was fairly empty) and sang along with the radio, under my breath. A couple stops later, these two guys got on, both were built like offensive lineman, my self-professed "type." I looked over them and I realized something... I wasn't automatically attracted to them. I found myself wondering WHY... Usually, large men = hott to Robin... But, I realized something... It's getting to the point where I am attracted to men because of their desire for GOD. WHAT?!?! When did that happen? I used to be so freakin' boy crazy that almost any man who looked at me the right way was "date-worthy." But it's different now...
Don't get me wrong. I still like boys. I like boys quite a bit. But I've realized what is important about men... It's just like what's important about women... Are they striving hard and fast for the Lord? Is he going to push me toward Jesus in everything we do? Is he living his life like our Creator wants him to? Is this what God wants for me?
And you know what? I had NOTHING to do with this change. By the GRACE of GOD I let Jesus in my life, and He's being true to His word...He's shaping me into the woman He always planned for me to be. It's so good to know that every day of my life has been planned by God before I was a twinkle in my Mom's eye.
"...Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed." Psalm 139:16
I talked to a friend at STiM about this... He, too, was finally attracted to a girl because of her relationship with Christ. Boy started to give me hope in men again... Or, more correctly, Jesus used Boy to give me hope. This kid is really special, I can't wait to see what God is going to do with hime this summer. Oh, heavens! That's 2 times he's mentioned in my blog... Don't get any ideas, kiddo! :wink:
So, here is me, being vulnerable, for the whole of the internet to see, about my struggles...
So, I'm doing STiM (Student Training in Missions) and this summer I will be sent to Mexico City. Part of the program is trusting in God's faithfulness and fundraising the $3,000 it will take to get me to Mexico City. Our STiM team raises money together, but, we each have our share to raise.
I trust God on this, but I'm still human and I worry. I worry that I'm not doing enough. That God's sad at the little effort I'm putting inI haven't asked my church to support me yet, so that's scary... And I need to find more people to ask for support in general... I've just got to keep praying... I know God is for me. So, it'll be alright.
Also, on a lighter, but quite silly note, I want to have a date for Redo Your Prom, our big event this semester. It'll be a dance where you can go in the fashion that you would have liked your prom to be. So, you can go with a group... Dressed up or not... Go with a date... Whatever... And you know what? I'd like a date. Sadly, I would. So there you have it. I could... I mean, I could always ask someone... But what if... Argh. Who knew such a seemingly confident girl is SOO insecure?
Those are the major struggles of Robin today. I hope they brought some comic relief into your life. :)
Last night, I realized, that my relationship with JESUS is more important than my realtionships with men could ever be. I mean, truly and completely, my life in Christ is more important than anything else. I am happy when I know I'm pleasing God. I'm living in the truth that I am a beloved, beautiful, specially created daughter of The King.
Yes, I'd love to be a wife someday... I'd love to be in a relationship with a godly man, but I know that if it would get in the way of my walk with God, I don't need it. And I will live in my relationship with Jesus and have more JOY than I can ever explain!!
I think I'm starting to like that God made me a bit of a conundrum. I'm not saying that God did anything wrong, quite the opposite, actually, but I am saying that people don't always get me.
So, I'm weird, I get that. I'm loud and funny and friendly and startlingly insecure. I'm quite round and not too tall and yet, I'm fairly attractive. But then, I think... "You know what? God's great. It's because I'm so intriguing that people want to be around me... And then, when people are aound me, I get to talk about Jesus... Then maybe He can use me to bring people back to Him... I mean, if He can get it through my thick skull that He loves me, surely other people are a breeze."
So, here's what I'm trying to get at. I'm on the road to self-acceptance... I mean, if the only Perfect Guy ever thinks that I'm good enough to save, who am I to tell Him I'm not??
And again, Jesus comes through on everything He promoised. Not a day goes by where He doesn't come through for me. Meeting me in all my mess, He sits beside me and listens until I'm done... Then He whispers gently, "I've got it under control... What did I tell you so long ago? Just follow me. I'll take you where you need to go. When have I ever let you down? Let's take this life one step at a time, you and Me."
And it's true. He sticks to His word. He won't let me go at this alone. He doesn't take us in just to set us adrift when we screw up, when times get too hard, or when things seem impossible to fix. As John Teter said, God comes in when we get stage fright, "wraps His arm around us and says, 'I'm here, let's finish this together.'"
This is all I know in this life. I don't know what the future holds, but it's all good... Because I know who's carrying me through. And that's enough. For now and for always.
Incredibly witty and funny, you have a taste for irony in all that you see. It seems that life has put you in perpetually untenable situations, and your sense of humor is all that gets you through them. These experiences have also made you an ardent pacifist, though you present your message with tongue sewn into cheek. You could coin a phrase that replaces the word "paradox" for millions of people.
Mystical and rain-soaked, you remain mysterious to many people, and this makes you intriguing. You also like a good night at the pub, though many are just as worried that you will blow up the pub as drink your beverage of choice. You're good with words, remarkably lucky, and know and enjoy at least fifteen ways of eating a potato. You really don't like snakes. Country Quiz at the Blue Pyramid
So, God never ceases to amaze me. He is so faithful in revealing Himself to His children. He’s unfailing, this God of ours. So, it was neat the amazing revelation I had in small group tonight. Let me give you some background…
I watch two adorable little girls after school, which I absolutely love doing. The girls are great, they’re five and seven (actually eight and almost six, but never mind) and it’s a great job… There’s just one little thing… The seven year old has this OUTSTANDINGLY ANNOYING habit of correcting almost EVERYTHING I SAY. Things like, “You’re driving too fast, Miss Robin,” “No, Miss Robin, that’s not true,” “That’s not how you pump gas, Miss Robin,” and, of course “No one stirs yogurt like that, Miss Robin.” No matter what I do, she thinks it’s wrong. My answer to her usually is, “I’ve been alive at LEAST three times longer than you have, and I know a thing or two about (whatever she wants to correct me about at this exact second).”
In Bible Study tonight, we were discussing having faith like a child. Someone pipes up with, “Well, children don’t doubt.” I quickly replied with, “Oh yes they do,” and launch into the above story. Then, it hit me. God spoke some amazing truth into my life… I DO THE EXACT SAME THING TO GOD! Well, here’s what a typical dialogue between me and my Loving and GRACIOUS Creator looks like. God: “Hi Robin, It’s God. I just wanted to let you know that I love you VERY much, you matter quite a bit to me, and on top of that, I created you like I wanted you and you’re beautiful. No matter what anyone else tells you.” Robin: “What?! No way! You’re wrong, God. I’m ugly and fat, which means I don’t matter and You can’t possibly love me. Yup. You’re just wrong.” God: “Ok, Robin, listen closely, this is GOD, the CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE, and I say you have worth, you matter, you’re special, you’re beautiful, and I created you to be who you are.” Robin: “No, God, I won’t listen… LA LA LA LA LA….”
It was tonight, through the analogy of my annoying seven year old, that I realized how ANNOYING that must be to God. But, thankfully, God doesn’t get annoyed with us, or I’d have been thrown out a LONG time ago! It felt like He said tonight, “Robin, I’ve been around since… oh… BEFORE THERE WAS TIME… Which is a LOT longer than you, and in fact, I created beauty, worth, and OH, EVERYTHING, so I know a thing or two about what is beautiful and what has worth. So LISTEN TO ME when I say you are BEAUTIFUL and you MATTER and most of all, I LOVE YOU!!!”
And… You know what?... I got it. I mean, I really got it. It makes sense. I can see that God knows better than I what matters, and He’s true to His Word. He loves me. He thinks I’m beautiful. He sent His Son to die for me because They love me. I got it… I GOT it… I GOT IT. He doesn’t lie. God has never been a liar. So, I won’t tell Him that He is anymore. Now, I may not understand it every day. But I refuse to deny it anymore.
Wow, ya’ll, what a blessing it is to have the Love of God through the sacrifice of Christ Jesus. Don’t plug your ears at God today. Let Him tell you what you need to hear. I promise it doesn’t hurt.
I'm not even kidding... STiM is so freaking awesome.
I love my team. They are, hands down, some of the most awesome people I've ever been able to meet. I can't wait for all of us to go on our short-terms and then get back and share them with each other.
It was really neat this weekend to get closer to one of the guys. I figured that he just kinda put up with me because I was that funny round girl. Turns out, we both really appreciate the other. He's been such a blessing on these STiM weekends. He makes me feel special, appreciated, loved, and sometimes even feminine, which is a rarity in my world. Boy even danced with me a bit. :D I'm just so glad he's around. It's really really nice to have a kind male friend. There you have it. Oh, and if you read this, since I haven't mentioned your name but I'm sure you know who you are, I wouldn't trade your hair (the way it is) for anything in the world! :lol:
God has really been faithful to showing himself in my life lately. He reminded me that I TRULY matter to him! Truly!! I am important and special. And, nothing I can do can seperate me from the love that Christ has for me. And because of HIS sacrifice, nothing and no one can condemn me. I am free because of HIS love. What an awesome thought...
"Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death...And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, whohave been called according to his purpose.For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers...And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.....For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. " Romans 8: 1-2, 28-29, 38-39
This is what God has for us. In CHRIST we have freedom from sin and death! In CHRIST we have LOVE that conquers all other loves. In CHRIST we have a family that goes beyond bonds of race, ethnicity, and culture. It's a blessing, brothers and sisters, to know that you truly matter to a Loving and FAITHFUL Father.
Know that YOU matter to Him yesterday, today, and every day to come. :)
This is the continuation of the last blog... What was I talking about exactly? Oh well....
So, right now I am basically living for Friday at 1 when I leave for BREAKTHROUGH! Oh, I can't wait! I've been thinknig that I can't believe I almost decided not to go. This weekend is hopefully going to be a great time, and very spritually refreshing... Hopefully. As long as I don't run around trying to be the "life of the party." Which I just do because I feel, most of the time, that I have to get my worth from having other people like me. I know that it's a big lie that Satan tells me to undermine my identity in CHRIST!!! So, I don't have to be entertaining or funny or "on" in order to have worth. :) There you go. My rant for the day....
I love sitting in the UC (University Center, also known as the Student Union) and hooking up to the network and doing all sortsa fun stuff (like updating my blog) in the middle of the day. I get to have quality time with my computer ( I know, it's sad, don't judge me) and I usually see at least 2 people I know. In a school of 25,000 people, it's surprising how many people I know!!
Ok,I have to go to class soon!!
I think I'll try and wtire more later this afternoon!
So, here I am, on my break during ADPR... My graphic design class... I love it. Really, it's just that Galvez is one of my two favourite teachers and I'm running on endorphins from volleyball and dance this morning. Either way, this is shaping up to be a really good Tuesday, which is exciting since Tuesdays are my really long, really stressful days. I've been on campus all day and I'm still in a good mood. God is GOOD. All the time. :D
So, STIM 2 is coming up, which is really exciting. I'm lookig forward to this one, which is surprising, since, if you look at my blog from the time before STIM 1, I was in a continual state of feeling like I was going to throw up. But now, I know more of the team, I have an idea of what's going to go on, and I think I'm more sure that this is what GOD wants me to do.
Ok, I have to finish this later.I'll be back later....
I caught a glimpse of Your splendor In the corner of my eye The most beautiful thing I've ever seen And it was like a flash of lightning Reflected off the sky And I know I'll never be the same
Show me Your glory Send down Your presence I want to see Your face Show me Your glory Majesty shines about You I can't go on without You, Lord
When I climb down the mountain And get back to my life I won't settle for ordinary things I'm gonna follow You forever And for all of my days I won't rest 'til I see You again
Show me Your glory Show me Your glory I can't live without You
"Show Me Your Glory" Third Day Today was the first day in a long time that I really desired to be with God. Just to sit at the throne and hear Him speak. To not talk at Him like I normally do, but to hear what He wants to tell me.
I feel like I saw a glimpse of His Glory at Urbana... It was like He opened up the sky and said, "Now that's what I'm talking about. Live for this. Strive for this. Live as my Children. As siblings. Live for Me."
It's so breath taking that in the midst of my selfish life, Jesus still makes it a point to touch me. To remind me that I am truly His child. And I am loved.
Here's to hoping all of you walk in the TRUTH of HIS LOVE today -
So, I'm debating on whether or not I should put a really long STiM blog up. I mean, I guess some people would care to know what's going on... I think I'd rather just write a really long love letter to my team. They've been AMAZING. Seriously, folks, these are some of the coolest, most loving, funniest, most charming, most fabulous people in the world. I'd bet my bank account on it, if I were a betting man... Or woman. These men and women have been the most tangible showing of Christ's love to me, ever. 
